Thursday, September 26, 2013

let the count down begin

134  Days
19  Weeks and  1  Days

via http://www.easysurf.cc/ndate2.htm... a site that will calculate the number of days between 2 dates

this is good news.
I have 20 weeks (ish) to lose some weight...
this is totally possible.
20lbs? yeah lets do this

Today I will do it

203.4
Today I will do it

Yesterday was a bit of a bust.
I worked from home, so the fridge and temptation was around all day... willpower pushed to the max.
Also, when I took Bridget to her appointment, we went to McDonald's :(
which was the worst decision ever made... because later in the day, I had such bad stomach cramps from the gas and bloating that I was in excruciating pain, I couldn't stay and do cardio ;(

I must remember this... my body does not like McDonald's.

Good luck today, you can do this, one day at a time

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

What a gorgeous morning

203.0lbs

Wow, today is amazing. I can not believe how beautiful the sunrise was this morning as I drove into work.
* the hours of daylight certainly are getting shorter.
The sun is shining and the weather will be nice today. (and for the next few days)



I totally intended to bring my running shoes and go for a walk at lunch... but I forgot.
I left the house 10 minutes earlier than usual at 6:50am, and I thought to myself, I could stay at home a few minutes longer and get stuff done... I should have paused to remember.
What I will do is put together a wee bag with shoes, socks a change of clothes so I can go for a walk on Thursday, it is supposed to be 20 degrees on Thursday.

My knee is killing me this morning. This is one of the reasons I want to lose weight, so my knees and feet don't hurt any more, or at least less. I don't know if it is from the gym last night (step ups?) I do recall right near the end, my left knee did feel a twinge of pain... I am just falling apart :(
Perhaps it is better that I don't go for a long walk at lunch, but I do think I will do my best to get up from my desk and at least walk around today. Sitting all day long is killing me (and my body).

Tomorrow I get to work from home (Yay) but I still have to pretend that I am at work, and pack my food for the day.... I don't want to blow my good behaviour from yesterday all because I work from home.

speaking of yesterday, I was pretty good, I stayed mostly on plan, but the extra points I did eat, I burned off at the gym!!! Yay me, if only I could do that everyday. It is very hard to do consistently day after day after day. I guess if it were easy everyone would be doing it :) I want to be down this Saturday, below where I was 2 weekends ago! This is my goal! Next I really really really want to be below 200lbs. I just have to work the plan for a few days and be consistent and it will happen. I know that if I DO IT, it will happen.

Good luck, and I will see y'all tomorrow.


Friday, September 20, 2013

Re-Focus

So I have fallen off the wagon for the past few days, I don't know why... it just happened.
I want to do this, I know I can do this, I just need to keep at it.
One pound at a time, one week at a time, remember if I keep at this, in 50weeks, I will be down 50Lbs


How?
- tomorrow, I will go to my WW meeting, and accept my fate at the scale ;(
I'm sure it wont be good, but if I face it, I can correct it for the following week.

Last week was such a great meeting, why did I let my good habits disappear?
was I too self assured? was I too complacent? was I just not feeling it? why?

Right now, who cares why, just get back to doing it!!!
Figure out why later.

Perhaps I have to review WHY I am doing this in the first place:
1. Too look better
2. To not have heartburn anymore
3. To be able to fit into 'regular' store sized clothing
4. To be less self conscious
5. To be in better health
6. To be able to bend down easily and get up of the floor easily
7. To highlight the muscles that I know I have
8. To be proud of myself
9. To feel like I have accomplished my goals
10. To have more energy

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

I believe it will work

Tuesday September 17th
this past Saturday, at my WW meeting we discussed
"Believing it will work"
I took some photos of the self reflection exercises we were supposed to do... can I find them???
no, so they must be somewhere on my hard drive on one of the computers or laptops floating around at home.

I really want to do this, the meeting was very inspiring, we discussed why we believed it would work for us, and brainstormed ideas on how to strengthen that belief, and what happens when you feel that belief slipping away from you. it was quite literally one of the best WW meetings I have ever attended. that is why I want to do the self reflection exercise, it will help me understand some of the root issues I have with my weight and how to dig deep and gain the willpower and motivation I need to keep going on this journey.

I know I can do it, I just have to put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward toward my goal.

last night I killed it at the gym AND stayed and did my cardio!!!
again, I always feel great when I do my cardio... must remember that when I am wavering...

gotta run



Monday, September 16, 2013

Monday September 16th, 2013

today = 203.4

I really will try and 'do it' properly this week.
I have set myself up for success today, lunch is bang on! and I will go to the gym tonight and work with Tracey and then stay for cardio. Today will be a great day on plan!


On a completely different topic, I want to really learn how to be the best mom in the world to my sweet little girl. I made a huge mistake yesterday and I want to try and make sure that I didn't do an endless amount of damage (I don't think I did, I just don't know how much she really understood). So, even though it was a slip up, I think I was able to recover and I spent the whole afternoon with my girl reading, doing crafts, doing her nails, chatting with her and generally really listening and spending quality time with her. I need to keep in mind some of these tips for raising a 7 year old:


  • Help your child identify her emotions - being able to say how she feels ("sad" or "mad") and what she needs (e.g. "a hug" or "to be by myself for a while").
  • Teach her how to take a breath and count to 10 when feeling a strong negative emotion. Role model this behaviour.
  • Help her focus on her strengths and abilities and talents. Building a strong self- concept will help her in the future.

None of this sounds easy to do. I really hope I don't mess this up, I only have one child to experiment on, I have no 'spares'. :)

Friday, September 13, 2013

Friday the 13th...

So today is Friday September 13th, 2013... spooky day
I told Bridget this, and she asked me why? and I did not have an answer... must look up why Friday the 13th is considered spooky...

today = 203 lbs

Last night I stayed and did cardio after my PT session with Tracey, Yay me!!!
I know this to be true - when I stay and do cardio, or when I do any cardio for that matter - I feel like a million bucks!
cardio = better than Celexa :)
I can not remember a time in the past 5-6 years when I have felt so great all the time.

I wont have met my goal tomorrow, but that is ok, I will do my best to meet it the following week.
I will adjust my goal slightly:

Goal = 199.9lbs by Saturday September 21st

Lets get to this...

How?
- Write down all my food
- Eat within my points
- Drink my water
- Cardio!!!
- Oatmeal for breakfast
- Zero point soup (ok, so it isn't zero points anymore... but you get the idea)
- Go to WW meeting on Saturday morning

This is my plan for Friday September 13th through Saturday September 21st