I've *almost* fallen off the horse... but I'm holding on for dear life

203 lbs

ok, so I haven't completely blown it, I would say I have held on ok ...
but I could do so much better, and that is why I disappoint myself.
Why am I making this take so long? why do I sabotage my progress?
honestly it doesn't make me happy and it doesn't get me closer to my goal.

last Saturday morning I stepped on the scale first thing in the morning and I saw 201 !!! and when I went to my meeting I was down 2.3lbs!!! Wow what an accomplishment!!!

Why didn't I continue the journey?
Why did I have to blow it and start eating those yummy girl guide chocolate mint cookies... yummmmmm

It stops today. I get back on track and perhaps can salvage this week.
because the things I have done well are:
- Saturday - ate pretty well all morning, and day and had a mango chicken salad for dinner... (but we also went to the Movies and I split a popcorn with Ben, even though I was full)
- Sunday - was a horrible blur, I had an allergy attack from hell... that lasted all day and I watched Netflix pretty much all day (Misfits season 1 & 2)
- I ate pretty well, I went to the gym on Monday - 60 minutes with Tracey (PT) and 30 minutes of Cardio!!!
- I ate pretty well, I went to the gym on Tuesday - 30 minutes with Tracey (PT) and 30 minutes of Cardio!!!

Why even when I am listing the things I have done well, do I do the opposite? and start nitpicking on the negative things I do.
Why can I not be happy and proud of the things that I did do!!!
Yay Me!!!

oh well, enough with the introspective stuff... It really doesn't get me very far

Today I am going to correct my behaviour and follow plan!!!
I can do this.
now where is my water :)