Live with purpose

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Phew, thank goodness the upward trend has been reversed.

But... yesterday was a complete cluster @#$% when it comes to my healthy eating. I threw in the towel big time. Thankfully each day presents its self as a clean slate, and today I am grateful for that.

Today is a new day for me to start fresh. And I will, I am.

If I can make it through the next few days, I can reset my course come Tuesday. I will do my best not to blow each day, each meal between now and then, but I refuse to beat myself up for it. It isnt worth the guilt. One or two bad meals and bad decisions will not ruin me for life.

I have to just accept that I will not be perfect and move on, that is a hard thing for me.

Not being perfect makes me feel like a bad person.
Deep down I know that I should not strive to be perfect, also, I know it is an impossible goal to achieve. (also, what does 'perfect' mean anyway?)
but for some reason in my head, I feel that I should be able to be perfect... (at least my idea of perfect: Eat Clean, Eat within my points, Track all my food intake, Drink my water, sleep 7-8 hours per night, go to the gym 3 times per week, etc...)
but when real life hits, I make excuses for why I dont write down my food, I forget to drink my water... my habits and lifestyle get in the way of what I want to do.
I have to start being more mindful of my habits and actions. then when I am faced with a decision, I will make the 'right' one based on my goals and on my habits.

I just have to slow down and be mindful, live with purpose.