Hi Coach ,
I guess my reset button got stuck :)
I may have taken this past weekend off from all thoughts of
PN, even the exercise part (which I love).
Part of me was resenting the huge time and energy commitment
I have made to this, and the fact that I am not seeing any results (on the
scale). I was feeling “why bother” spending all this time working out and
trying to juggle my schedule around to get the workouts in, and getting out at
lunch and eating all this extra protein, and buying veggie supplements and protein
powder, not eating treats, not going out for Friday lunches with my coworkers etc…
I have been feeling like I have given up all my special indulgences like
cuddling up on the couch with my daughter watching a movie and eating popcorn,
or enjoying going out for lunch with my coworkers on a Friday etc… So I gave
myself permission to take the weekend off from PN… although I am still
suffering the guilt and after effects from eating a whole bag of popcorn… the
salt (UGH!!!).
I shouldn’t say I haven’t seen any results, because I know
my blood pressure has gone down, I am no longer dizzy and light headed all the
time (even when sitting). My body feels stronger, my side plank ROCKS, squats
are EASY!!! I can do burpees J
etc… The changes to my physical abilities have seen enormous gains. Prior to PN
I was working out 2x per week with a personal trainer, and 1x per week doing
cardio. Now I have been going for a 2 – 3Km walk every weekday lunch hour, 3x
weight trainings per week, 2x interval trainings and the 1x Active recovery and
am always looking for new and fun ways to exercise and incorporate fun activity
into my life and my family’s… and now even my coworkers (I have arranged a Thursday
lunchtime skate at our indoor arena!!!)
The exercise component of PN has reenergized me to a point
where I have not felt so HAPPY in over 8 years. (since before the birth of my
child). I am completely addicted to how exercise makes me feel. I think no
matter how this PN experiment goes, I will take away the need to exercise more
than I was.
So I can say I have been seeing results on this PN journey.
The Habits…
These I am completely failing at. I think I was trying to
deal with all the balls in the air at once and I felt overwhelmed and stopped
doing any of them. (just after the protein habit) I know I should just do what
the PN instructions say: Today’s lesson, Today’s Workout and Today’s Habit. But
it is so hard not to get mired down in the other habits that I am not doing. I
tend to have “all or nothing” thoughts. It comes from the same place as the
perfectionist does.
I don’t really know how to fix it.
PN coaching is helping a bit, but I think I have been this
way for so long it is a really really really hard habit to break, its almost
part of my genetic code.
This carb habit is impossible. I know what I should be
doing, and I even like Quinoa :) but actually doing it is proving to be way more difficult than I expected. I am
so used to throwing some chicken in a wrap or having an English muffin with an
egg and salsa etc… that breaking this is messing with my ‘go to’ recipes. It is
now screaming of more hard work, since I have to research new recipes and find
new carb sources that I like, and prepare them ahead of time
I keep wondering if this is worth it. Yes I would like to
weigh less, but wowza it is ever difficult to shed even one pound.
This week, I am going to try and focus on the carb thing,
and getting back into the exercise groove. (since I missed Friday and Saturday
last week, and I haven’t gotten 10,000 steps in in 3 days) . I am going grocery
shopping tonight, so I will have food in the house to get this thing done!!!
I really appreciate you checking in, I know I should be more
self guiding and responsible, but man is it ever easy to fall of the wagon and
stay off :)
NOTE: this coming weekend is Canadian thanksgiving … the good news is that it is pot
luck. We are bringing a salad and doing grilled veggies on the BBQ.
I have to stop looking so far into the future and getting
overwhelmed. Planning and strategizing is good… but it can also freak me out
and overwhelm me.
Id better stop obsessing over how things are going and just
DO IT.
Thanks for checking in.
Fiona :)
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