let the count down begin

134  Days
19  Weeks and  1  Days

via http://www.easysurf.cc/ndate2.htm... a site that will calculate the number of days between 2 dates

this is good news.
I have 20 weeks (ish) to lose some weight...
this is totally possible.
20lbs? yeah lets do this

Today I will do it

203.4
Today I will do it

Yesterday was a bit of a bust.
I worked from home, so the fridge and temptation was around all day... willpower pushed to the max.
Also, when I took Bridget to her appointment, we went to McDonald's :(
which was the worst decision ever made... because later in the day, I had such bad stomach cramps from the gas and bloating that I was in excruciating pain, I couldn't stay and do cardio ;(

I must remember this... my body does not like McDonald's.

Good luck today, you can do this, one day at a time

What a gorgeous morning

203.0lbs

Wow, today is amazing. I can not believe how beautiful the sunrise was this morning as I drove into work.
* the hours of daylight certainly are getting shorter.
The sun is shining and the weather will be nice today. (and for the next few days)

I totally intended to bring my running shoes and go for a walk at lunch... but I forgot.
I left the house 10 minutes earlier than usual at 6:50am, and I thought to myself, I could stay at home a few minutes longer and get stuff done... I should have paused to remember.
What I will do is put together a wee bag with shoes, socks a change of clothes so I can go for a walk on Thursday, it is supposed to be 20 degrees on Thursday.

My knee is killing me this morning. This is one of the reasons I want to lose weight, so my knees and feet don't hurt any more, or at least less. I don't know if it is from the gym last night (step ups?) I do recall right near the end, my left knee did feel a twinge of pain... I am just falling apart :(
Perhaps it is better that I don't go for a long walk at lunch, but I do think I will do my best to get up from my desk and at least walk around today. Sitting all day long is killing me (and my body).

Tomorrow I get to work from home (Yay) but I still have to pretend that I am at work, and pack my food for the day.... I don't want to blow my good behaviour from yesterday all because I work from home.

speaking of yesterday, I was pretty good, I stayed mostly on plan, but the extra points I did eat, I burned off at the gym!!! Yay me, if only I could do that everyday. It is very hard to do consistently day after day after day. I guess if it were easy everyone would be doing it :) I want to be down this Saturday, below where I was 2 weekends ago! This is my goal! Next I really really really want to be below 200lbs. I just have to work the plan for a few days and be consistent and it will happen. I know that if I DO IT, it will happen.

Good luck, and I will see y'all tomorrow.

Re-Focus

So I have fallen off the wagon for the past few days, I don't know why... it just happened.
I want to do this, I know I can do this, I just need to keep at it.
One pound at a time, one week at a time, remember if I keep at this, in 50weeks, I will be down 50Lbs


How?
- tomorrow, I will go to my WW meeting, and accept my fate at the scale ;(
I'm sure it wont be good, but if I face it, I can correct it for the following week.

Last week was such a great meeting, why did I let my good habits disappear?
was I too self assured? was I too complacent? was I just not feeling it? why?

Right now, who cares why, just get back to doing it!!!
Figure out why later.

Perhaps I have to review WHY I am doing this in the first place:
1. Too look better
2. To not have heartburn anymore
3. To be able to fit into 'regular' store sized clothing
4. To be less self conscious
5. To be in better health
6. To be able to bend down easily and get up of the floor easily
7. To highlight the muscles that I know I have
8. To be proud of myself
9. To feel like I have accomplished my goals
10. To have more energy

I believe it will work

Tuesday September 17th
this past Saturday, at my WW meeting we discussed
"Believing it will work"
I took some photos of the self reflection exercises we were supposed to do... can I find them???
no, so they must be somewhere on my hard drive on one of the computers or laptops floating around at home.

I really want to do this, the meeting was very inspiring, we discussed why we believed it would work for us, and brainstormed ideas on how to strengthen that belief, and what happens when you feel that belief slipping away from you. it was quite literally one of the best WW meetings I have ever attended. that is why I want to do the self reflection exercise, it will help me understand some of the root issues I have with my weight and how to dig deep and gain the willpower and motivation I need to keep going on this journey.

I know I can do it, I just have to put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward toward my goal.

last night I killed it at the gym AND stayed and did my cardio!!!
again, I always feel great when I do my cardio... must remember that when I am wavering...

gotta run

Monday September 16th, 2013

today = 203.4

I really will try and 'do it' properly this week.
I have set myself up for success today, lunch is bang on! and I will go to the gym tonight and work with Tracey and then stay for cardio. Today will be a great day on plan!


On a completely different topic, I want to really learn how to be the best mom in the world to my sweet little girl. I made a huge mistake yesterday and I want to try and make sure that I didn't do an endless amount of damage (I don't think I did, I just don't know how much she really understood). So, even though it was a slip up, I think I was able to recover and I spent the whole afternoon with my girl reading, doing crafts, doing her nails, chatting with her and generally really listening and spending quality time with her. I need to keep in mind some of these tips for raising a 7 year old:

• Help your child identify her emotions - being able to say how she feels ("sad" or "mad") and what she needs (e.g. "a hug" or "to be by myself for a while").
• Teach her how to take a breath and count to 10 when feeling a strong negative emotion. Role model this behaviour.
• Help her focus on her strengths and abilities and talents. Building a strong self- concept will help her in the future.

None of this sounds easy to do. I really hope I don't mess this up, I only have one child to experiment on, I have no 'spares'. :)

Friday the 13th...

So today is Friday September 13th, 2013... spooky day
I told Bridget this, and she asked me why? and I did not have an answer... must look up why Friday the 13th is considered spooky...

today = 203 lbs

Last night I stayed and did cardio after my PT session with Tracey, Yay me!!!
I know this to be true - when I stay and do cardio, or when I do any cardio for that matter - I feel like a million bucks!
cardio = better than Celexa :)
I can not remember a time in the past 5-6 years when I have felt so great all the time.

I wont have met my goal tomorrow, but that is ok, I will do my best to meet it the following week.
I will adjust my goal slightly:

Goal = 199.9lbs by Saturday September 21st

Lets get to this...

How?
- Write down all my food
- Eat within my points
- Drink my water
- Cardio!!!
- Oatmeal for breakfast
- Zero point soup (ok, so it isn't zero points anymore... but you get the idea)
- Go to WW meeting on Saturday morning

This is my plan for Friday September 13th through Saturday September 21st

deadline looming

Tuesday Sept 10th
So I set a deadline for my first goal a few weeks ago... and that deadline is FAST approaching, and I have a lot of work to do to get there.

EEK

today = 203.4lbs
goal = 199.9 by September 14th
that is 3.5lbs in 4 days.

Is this even possible? of course it is...
I guess I just have to bring out some heavy guns... and see what happens.
I will do my best

so, I cant re-do breakfast this morning, but

• I will have oatmeal for breakfast on Wed, Thurs & Fri 
• I will do cardio everyday (Tuesday, Wed, Thurs & Fri)
• I can have WW zero point soup to 'fill the gap'
• I will eat strictly within my points allowance for the rest of today, Wed, Thurs & Fri
• I will write it all down

Lets 'Git 'er dun!!!'

weekends are difficult

204.6lbs

It seems as if weekends are my Nemesis...
I can have a pretty good week, and then *BAM* the weekend comes and messes with my routine.
This past weekend we were at the cottage.
Note: I did not totally blow it, Bridget and I walked to the beach from the cottage (approx. 4 KM), this is a VERY VERY hilly route. Also, we had a very healthy lunch on Saturday (which I prepared!!!)
But... We did have bacon, eggs and toast on Sunday morning...
and we had an ice cream cone on Saturday after out hike... it was the only way I could get Bridget to come with me.

I am hoping that as fall settles in, so do some routines.
Ben and I have decided that IF... I am able to make it to 175lbs by Feb 1, 2014 I can book our Mediterranean cruise for the summer of 2015
if not, then we will do something not so fun... but I will continue to save my pennies, and perhaps when I do make it to my first goal, I can book our vacation!

Routines include, being able to go to my WW meeting on Saturday morning, being able to go for a hike/run/walk on Sundays and in general eating well and not treating myself to a free for all on the weekend.
e.g. a 4+ hour car ride, Wendy's for dinner on Friday night, free for all on Saturday, a big full fat ice cream cone on Saturday and Bacon and eggs and a 4 + hour sit in the car home, and then pita pit for dinner on Sunday...

Today = clean slate.
I commit to writing my food down all week (+ trying to stay within my points)

operation GET ON TRACK continues

Thursday Sept. 5th, 2013

(203.6.lbs)
Yesterday was OK, I fell victim to the cupcake... but according to my heart rate monitor I was able to burn 400 cals at the gym, just doing my PT session with Tracey. So cupcake = 1 hour of PT...

The reality is, that cupcake was an expensive cupcake
1 hour of my time + 50$ of PT ...
was it worth it?
NO

I go to the gym because I want muscles, and eventually to see muscle definition, I want to be strong.
That cupcake although did not do irreversible damage, did nothing to get me to my goal.

so, lesson learned.
I need to ask myself  "Is this going to get me to my goal faster or slower than I expect?"
e.g. is eating this cupcake going to get me to 199 by Sept 14th?

Other than the cupcake slip up, I was On Plan and on target with my points.
So overall not a bad day... but for the record the cupcake was NOT worth it.

Today I will track !

the plan is working

Wednesday September 4th, 2013

so today is business as usual. The first day of school has come and gone, the long weekend is long over, and summer seems like it is coming to an end.

I think I weighed myself this morning and I weighed (203.8lbs) but I really cant remember.
I should take a photo with my phone, that way I will remember.

so far today I have written down everything I have eaten.
I have had 3/4 of a litre of water
I have had 5 servings of fruits and veggies
I had 7 hours sleep
and I am going to the gym tonight to get my strength training and cardio in

on plan and loving it.

then why do I feel so awful?
I have a headache, by sinuses are all stuffed, and my upper lip is tingling from my sinuses...
Unfortunately I think I have a sinus infection :(

Last night I went grocery shopping with Bridget, she begged me to buy some cupcakes... I did.
then when we got home I check the nutritionals... UGH they were 400 calories per cupcake!!!
Whoa.... I didn't even think of taking a bite. 400 calories is like going to the gym and working HARD for over an hour!!! no way!
on a side note: I shouldn't be feeding this to my child, but we very rarely get treats of this nature, I figured it was a nice "back to school" treat. Unfortunately they came in a package of 4. Bridget tried sharing them with the kids on the street, but 2 of them had to go out with their daddy... so I was only able to get rid of 2 of the cupcakes. One for Bridget and one for the little boy across the street. I guess she can have one tonight, and perhaps I can convince Ben to finish up the other one :) I need them out of my house.

Exactly

First day of school and picnic summary

Tuesday Sept 3rd, 2013

Today is Bridget's first day of school, grade 2, a day for new beginnings. Fresh perspectives, starting new, forming new habits, rebirth!!! as you can see she is really happy to return to school and see all of her friends.

So we had the big "Family Picnic" this weekend, and as you can see from the photos, the food was beautiful, colourful, healthy, and fresh.

Although I didn't eat too poorly over the long weekend, I did not track.
Tracking is the habit I need to get a handle on so I am successful.

Planning, Tracking and eating within my points.
These 3 things are critical to my success.

Today I will track.
p.s. I have a paper tracker, so this week I commit to writing down everything I eat, Tuesday - Friday.
It isnt that hard in the big grand scheme of life to write down a few things for 4 days. I can do it!

So, today I will track, and the more I track the easier it will become, just like brushing my teeth, it will be something I just do.

I will track.
guess what, I have already started, I wrote down my breakfast!

keep going Fiona, if you do this for 4 days you will be down at your weigh in on Saturday.